It was supposed to be his birthday celebration on the 5th of july. I was supposed to give him a pleasant surprise plus a nice dinner, but everything failed. Reason being- His big mouth and self-proclaimed intelligent mind.
Damn, he knew everything i wanted to do beforehand.
Spoiler is what i called him.
Anyway, although i shouldnt say sorry for the screwed-up celebration, but i still do feel guilty la. In the end you made all the decisions on that day. But the most funny part was that we had lunch at fish & co glass house and dinner at boon lay zhi char hawker centre.
But still, we had a nice and fun night out. :)
Hey youuu. You spoiler - yes ya la this is to you. YOU! You better read this. Thanks for your 2 'presents' for me on your bdae celebration. Thanks for taking out your time. And thanks for silently contributing and i hadnt realised i wasnt contributing for the past 2 months.. (yea that goddamn $350). Thanks for wanting to pay for the singapore flyer ride, but because i felt so guilty for not contributing so i rejected your offer. Thanks for you wanting to give me a surprise by waiting for me at my office (although it failed).
Well, although your attitude is still as fucked-up as ever, but sometimes you still do deserve a thumbs-up for your little effort (i know i dont always realise it..).
Oh ya, stop buying chocolates for me and then end up eating everything up yourself can!! It's for me loRRR! I havent even had one bite and you already finished it. And you will always give me that famous quote from you:"It's the sincerity that counts." Your head la. Yea sincere as in at least you bought for me right. Blaa. ICE-CREAM also! I bought the bloody $5 icecream and i got to eat only like 3 small miserable mouthfuls. Well done. My drinks also. I just turned my head away for a short while and the moment i turned back, the drink is gone. Empty. Not even one drop left for me. The m ost bloody incident is the oyster egg one. You ate all the oysters away while i wasnt looking, leaving ugly holes on the oyster egg. $5 of oyster egg, and i only ate $0.50 worth of egg. You really is the most ungentleman guy i have ever seen. Good job!! Since you have a sweet-tooth, seriously one day you will either die of diabetes/heart attack. Lolz.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
If there's a reason for you to hate me,
then there's a thousand more reasons for me to hate you.
If there's one touching moment that you have given me,
then there's a thousand more touching moments i have given you.
If there's a time when you truly cared about me,
then there's a thousand more carings that i have showered you.
If there's a time when you make sacrifices for me,
then there's a thousand more sacrifices i have made for you.
If there's a time when you truly wanted to see me smile,
then there's a thousand more times when i have made you smile.
If there's a time you finally cherish me,
then there's a thousand more times i have cherished you.
If there comes a time when you have fallen in love with me,
then you would have realised me too late.
If there's a time when you finally realised everything,
I might be gone.
Im being drained of everything. I can no longer provide. I have given enough.
then there's a thousand more reasons for me to hate you.
If there's one touching moment that you have given me,
then there's a thousand more touching moments i have given you.
If there's a time when you truly cared about me,
then there's a thousand more carings that i have showered you.
If there's a time when you make sacrifices for me,
then there's a thousand more sacrifices i have made for you.
If there's a time when you truly wanted to see me smile,
then there's a thousand more times when i have made you smile.
If there's a time you finally cherish me,
then there's a thousand more times i have cherished you.
If there comes a time when you have fallen in love with me,
then you would have realised me too late.
If there's a time when you finally realised everything,
I might be gone.
Im being drained of everything. I can no longer provide. I have given enough.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
It came as a sudden realisation to me that one day, somehow or another, we will change. Be it to the better or to the worse, we will change. Everyone has to go through a this challenging phase in their lives. Whether or not you chose to accept it is your own perception on how you perceive things to be.
People will change for 2 reasons. 1) When they have undergone the most challenging task/obstacle in their lives. 2) When they realised they have no more reason to continue spurring on.
The results of these two reasons of change have two extreme effects on people. One, to cause the person to be stronger and face up to the reality of the world, or two, to lose all motivation and being a little crude here, that is to waste your life away without achieving anything.
I used to resign myself to my fate, and used to blame everything else including god when i fail in something i do. Each time i do that, the more i feel that i do not belong in this universe. I wasn't contented with what i have thus far. Finally, i harbour the thought of giving up.
Then, this person came along and he forced me to grow up. I wasnt used to his mature way of thinking and i made a lot of fuss about it. Slowly, i was influenced by his way of thinking, his way of building up his network for success in the future. I thought long and hard about the type of life i want to lead. I do not want to waste my life away. I do not want to stay put with only a few good friends around me, shopping and playing when im free. If i continue that way, i will never succeed in the future. I have so much more to learn.
Sometimes, in order to succeed, it's inevitable that something has to be given up.
People will change for 2 reasons. 1) When they have undergone the most challenging task/obstacle in their lives. 2) When they realised they have no more reason to continue spurring on.
The results of these two reasons of change have two extreme effects on people. One, to cause the person to be stronger and face up to the reality of the world, or two, to lose all motivation and being a little crude here, that is to waste your life away without achieving anything.
I used to resign myself to my fate, and used to blame everything else including god when i fail in something i do. Each time i do that, the more i feel that i do not belong in this universe. I wasn't contented with what i have thus far. Finally, i harbour the thought of giving up.
Then, this person came along and he forced me to grow up. I wasnt used to his mature way of thinking and i made a lot of fuss about it. Slowly, i was influenced by his way of thinking, his way of building up his network for success in the future. I thought long and hard about the type of life i want to lead. I do not want to waste my life away. I do not want to stay put with only a few good friends around me, shopping and playing when im free. If i continue that way, i will never succeed in the future. I have so much more to learn.
Sometimes, in order to succeed, it's inevitable that something has to be given up.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
When everything turns into hatred.
I realised i have changed. It's scary.
And it's you. Deep down, i hate you.
And it's you. Deep down, i hate you.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
It's hard being the girl behind you.
Though easy it may seem, but it requires a brand new me.
Im not used to it, neither am i accustomed to it.
And the effort is, tremendous.
Patience, is all i gave.
It doesnt comes easily, especially when it's from me.
But do you even know that i exist?
You took my presence for granted
Because of the time i gave
But have you ever,
set aside time for me in your diary?
I was aware,
of your family,studies and friends
But i have not request much,
just that you will appreciate what i have done, thus far.
It's a challenge to be with you,
with the obstacles i had to cross
and the tolerance i had to give
My endurance ever so high
Are you aware, of what you are putting me through?
I wasnt recognised
neither was i treated rightly
In front of your friends, i was nothing.
Do you care, the amount of pain i once felt.
You are afraid
And you are hiding
But, how does it feel,
to not face up to your feelings?
It's hard, to be with you.
It's hard, to like you.
It's hard to be the girl behind you.
When will you take my sorrows away?
Though easy it may seem, but it requires a brand new me.
Im not used to it, neither am i accustomed to it.
And the effort is, tremendous.
Patience, is all i gave.
It doesnt comes easily, especially when it's from me.
But do you even know that i exist?
You took my presence for granted
Because of the time i gave
But have you ever,
set aside time for me in your diary?
I was aware,
of your family,studies and friends
But i have not request much,
just that you will appreciate what i have done, thus far.
It's a challenge to be with you,
with the obstacles i had to cross
and the tolerance i had to give
My endurance ever so high
Are you aware, of what you are putting me through?
I wasnt recognised
neither was i treated rightly
In front of your friends, i was nothing.
Do you care, the amount of pain i once felt.
You are afraid
And you are hiding
But, how does it feel,
to not face up to your feelings?
It's hard, to be with you.
It's hard, to like you.
It's hard to be the girl behind you.
When will you take my sorrows away?
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
In case my clique nag at me again, i better blog something, even if it is just pure bo liao stuffs. Hahaha, seriously my clique is really getting old and their naggings sucks. I hate nagginggggsss. BLAAA.
Shall not blog about the usual-k-box outing with clique, cause' it's been going on for years, so much so we are already siannnzzz of it. And i promised to organise some special outing the next time round.
Have been working at my current workplace for almost 1mth now.. i can only say that it's a very good experience. The environment there- alright. But the people there- Best. Jokers all around and you can never fail to laugh each day u work there. They are just like my clique ppl, funny until sometimes i just cant stop laughing. But the most important thing is, they people there have no airs about them, and they are nice. : )
But one thing i learnt over there is - In order to climb up, you have to know how to suck up to your boss. Sad, but true. You must know how to smile, and be submissive, even when you hated your boss so much you hoped he just get his ass off his seat in the office.
Got back my results last week. Worse than what i had expected. Really very demoralising and sad to see that my once-good results had been reduced to such miserable state. My mentality is the same as fumin. Shall not elaborate any further but trust me, from now on im going to really put in my best shot for engineering. I have had enough of whining about the course and losing all motivation. Whatever degree i am going to graduate with, im going to just make full use of it and give in my best shot. Life isnt going to be any worse as long as i graduate with a university degree in hand. At this down part of my life, it's time i stand up and face it.
Ok la, enough of my blog. Now you, go back and do ur things la!! So kpo, read my blog!
Shall not blog about the usual-k-box outing with clique, cause' it's been going on for years, so much so we are already siannnzzz of it. And i promised to organise some special outing the next time round.
Have been working at my current workplace for almost 1mth now.. i can only say that it's a very good experience. The environment there- alright. But the people there- Best. Jokers all around and you can never fail to laugh each day u work there. They are just like my clique ppl, funny until sometimes i just cant stop laughing. But the most important thing is, they people there have no airs about them, and they are nice. : )
But one thing i learnt over there is - In order to climb up, you have to know how to suck up to your boss. Sad, but true. You must know how to smile, and be submissive, even when you hated your boss so much you hoped he just get his ass off his seat in the office.
Got back my results last week. Worse than what i had expected. Really very demoralising and sad to see that my once-good results had been reduced to such miserable state. My mentality is the same as fumin. Shall not elaborate any further but trust me, from now on im going to really put in my best shot for engineering. I have had enough of whining about the course and losing all motivation. Whatever degree i am going to graduate with, im going to just make full use of it and give in my best shot. Life isnt going to be any worse as long as i graduate with a university degree in hand. At this down part of my life, it's time i stand up and face it.
Ok la, enough of my blog. Now you, go back and do ur things la!! So kpo, read my blog!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
I should be studying now at this moment because i have a life science exam tomorrow. But i was feeling really tired so i thought i could take a break from all the cells and organelles.
It's been such a long time ever since i updated my blog. It's exam period now, and yeah as usual, all the muggings to do.
If nothing goes wrong next semester, and pray hard that my points are enough to get into hall, i will be staying with kl and she will be my roomie then! So excited about the thought of being able to stay in hall, although it may seem nothing to those who have stayed before. I was so desperate to get into hall that i asked jiahan to talk to her friend about putting me in the recommended list. Her friend asked me what i can contribute to the hall if she managed to pull me in, and without any hesitation, i told her netball interhall games. Come to think of it now, imagine im playing the netball interhall games, then there is bound to be many people watching, i wonder if i will be frightened. I think i will. Haha.
Got accepted to go for summer studies in Vietnam, but am rejecting it. I think my parents think im not independent enough to go there. Ah, now half of my future is gone.
He's been treating me much better now. At least, more normally. And i can feel it. I felt so much more happy these days. But, the question still lingers in my head.
It's been such a long time ever since i updated my blog. It's exam period now, and yeah as usual, all the muggings to do.
If nothing goes wrong next semester, and pray hard that my points are enough to get into hall, i will be staying with kl and she will be my roomie then! So excited about the thought of being able to stay in hall, although it may seem nothing to those who have stayed before. I was so desperate to get into hall that i asked jiahan to talk to her friend about putting me in the recommended list. Her friend asked me what i can contribute to the hall if she managed to pull me in, and without any hesitation, i told her netball interhall games. Come to think of it now, imagine im playing the netball interhall games, then there is bound to be many people watching, i wonder if i will be frightened. I think i will. Haha.
Got accepted to go for summer studies in Vietnam, but am rejecting it. I think my parents think im not independent enough to go there. Ah, now half of my future is gone.
He's been treating me much better now. At least, more normally. And i can feel it. I felt so much more happy these days. But, the question still lingers in my head.
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