I feel like a happy girl these days!
Feeling of sweetness.*
Yay! :)
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Start of School Post
:)
I gave my post a smile because I had been graded A for my Industrial Attachment! To think I had complained so much in my previous post but in the end I had did extremely well! I am so so so happy about my achievement.
And because of that, I feel that I have the motivation to move on in my studies now. I am attending every lectures that I have and trying very very hard to absorb the stuffs taught in school. I also make it a point to do my tutorials on time and try to read up my notes before I attend the lecture. It may seem normal to all of you but it's a great deal to me, because somehow or rather I will always tend to skip lectures. Now even if I know there's online lectures, I still insist on going school to attend the classes. Another smile from me. :)
Next, my timetable is finally finalized! After much thinking, I have decided to take up one elective this semester.. Something I dont really like about this elective is that there's this assignment that I have to do, and the exam format is 4 essay questions. As such, I guess S/U option is the only way out. Haha. I shall see how la. Here's my timetable schedule! The pink shaded one is tuition.
Headed down to Minds Cafe for a 3 hours game with Rik yesterday. Of course the only reason why we went there is because we had a $10 voucher to spare. Lol. I guess fumin and weijing have already forgotten they had this voucher too. After which, we took a bus down to Chinatown in the evening. Brought him around the area and we shopped at the pasar-malam. Luckily there wasnt really a lot of people since it's still rather early. Then as the night falls, we came across this street - Club street that really sell antique stuffs and vintage clothings. There is this particular book shop that I like. It's a three story high shop house, very very vintage type and it sells all types of books, note books, vintage paper, antiques like typewriters, toys , gummy balls etc. I was very very very very tempted to buy the notebooks they had there and some of the real antique books they sell there. But the prices are more on the steep side. So yea, in the end we didnt buy anything there. Really really loved that place to bits! Smile from me :)
Well, not many people might know.. but I had a thing for old stuffs. That's why I like to go to museums and chinatown area. Should really find one day and take a slow walk there. I LOVE IT!!
After which we had our dinner at Jerry's BBQ and Grill, which was also located at Club Street. Vintage shophouse again. Located at one of the most trendy streets of Singapore, Jerry's is in a very quaint 3-storey pre-war storehouse. The ambience there is very nice and there were quite a few ang mohs. I ordered Grilled Pacific Dory Fish Fillet whereas Rik ordered Barbequed Pork - The Pulled Pork. Both were damn nice and I highly recommend Jerry's. But be prepared to pay more. Hahaa. Another smile from me :)
*I love outing day with dear.
Here's the place!
I gave my post a smile because I had been graded A for my Industrial Attachment! To think I had complained so much in my previous post but in the end I had did extremely well! I am so so so happy about my achievement.
And because of that, I feel that I have the motivation to move on in my studies now. I am attending every lectures that I have and trying very very hard to absorb the stuffs taught in school. I also make it a point to do my tutorials on time and try to read up my notes before I attend the lecture. It may seem normal to all of you but it's a great deal to me, because somehow or rather I will always tend to skip lectures. Now even if I know there's online lectures, I still insist on going school to attend the classes. Another smile from me. :)
Next, my timetable is finally finalized! After much thinking, I have decided to take up one elective this semester.. Something I dont really like about this elective is that there's this assignment that I have to do, and the exam format is 4 essay questions. As such, I guess S/U option is the only way out. Haha. I shall see how la. Here's my timetable schedule! The pink shaded one is tuition.
Headed down to Minds Cafe for a 3 hours game with Rik yesterday. Of course the only reason why we went there is because we had a $10 voucher to spare. Lol. I guess fumin and weijing have already forgotten they had this voucher too. After which, we took a bus down to Chinatown in the evening. Brought him around the area and we shopped at the pasar-malam. Luckily there wasnt really a lot of people since it's still rather early. Then as the night falls, we came across this street - Club street that really sell antique stuffs and vintage clothings. There is this particular book shop that I like. It's a three story high shop house, very very vintage type and it sells all types of books, note books, vintage paper, antiques like typewriters, toys , gummy balls etc. I was very very very very tempted to buy the notebooks they had there and some of the real antique books they sell there. But the prices are more on the steep side. So yea, in the end we didnt buy anything there. Really really loved that place to bits! Smile from me :)
Well, not many people might know.. but I had a thing for old stuffs. That's why I like to go to museums and chinatown area. Should really find one day and take a slow walk there. I LOVE IT!!
After which we had our dinner at Jerry's BBQ and Grill, which was also located at Club Street. Vintage shophouse again. Located at one of the most trendy streets of Singapore, Jerry's is in a very quaint 3-storey pre-war storehouse. The ambience there is very nice and there were quite a few ang mohs. I ordered Grilled Pacific Dory Fish Fillet whereas Rik ordered Barbequed Pork - The Pulled Pork. Both were damn nice and I highly recommend Jerry's. But be prepared to pay more. Hahaa. Another smile from me :)
*I love outing day with dear.
Here's the place!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
A friend of mine told me this today.
"Eh! I know the results!"
My heart was racing. What? What results? How did I fare?
2 minutes later, the world seemed to tumble down on me as I learnt the truth. The truth was - It had not turned out to be what I anticipated.
I felt like a total failure. Questions kept popping up in my head. After I hang up the phone, I find it hard to keep myself cool and banged my table real hard. Images of my academic results and my graduation ceremony slipped past in my head. Then tears came rolling down my cheeks. I cried.
He became the most hated man I had in my mind at the point of time.
I walked on the streets thinking of the possible reasons. Just what could have gone wrong?
A friend once told me this, "Do you know that your actions are exaggerated when someone happens to step on your toes, even accidentally?"
Now I guess that he was right. I would elaborate it here because the idea that came across my mind was horrible.
Now, I know I must work doubly hard from this day onwards.
Because what you gave is not equivalent to what you receive. And perhaps, it was right to say that having a certain kind of relations do make things work better. Easier to score. Just because there is a relation. Facts I saw proved everything right.
Pray hard.
"Eh! I know the results!"
My heart was racing. What? What results? How did I fare?
2 minutes later, the world seemed to tumble down on me as I learnt the truth. The truth was - It had not turned out to be what I anticipated.
I felt like a total failure. Questions kept popping up in my head. After I hang up the phone, I find it hard to keep myself cool and banged my table real hard. Images of my academic results and my graduation ceremony slipped past in my head. Then tears came rolling down my cheeks. I cried.
He became the most hated man I had in my mind at the point of time.
I walked on the streets thinking of the possible reasons. Just what could have gone wrong?
A friend once told me this, "Do you know that your actions are exaggerated when someone happens to step on your toes, even accidentally?"
Now I guess that he was right. I would elaborate it here because the idea that came across my mind was horrible.
Now, I know I must work doubly hard from this day onwards.
Because what you gave is not equivalent to what you receive. And perhaps, it was right to say that having a certain kind of relations do make things work better. Easier to score. Just because there is a relation. Facts I saw proved everything right.
Pray hard.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Christmas Day Post
Merry Christmas to all!! :)
I spent my Christmas day with dear and his family at his house this year. There was a splendid feast and that's what I have been looking forward to ever since his mum invited me for the party. Initially was kinda reluctant to go because I felt shy.. Haha but everything turned out to be just fine! I enjoyed myself really much, especially the exchanging presents part. Stupid dear, I knew all along what he was up to in his mind, and I'm right!
Anyway like I said, the food was great. There were spaghetti, ham, turkey, stewed beef, chocolate corn flakes, fruit salad which tastes like heaven and most importantly, chocolate fountain fondue! Eat until I am so happy.
However somewhere during the opening presents part, something led me to think of my unhappy memories again. I saw and felt how close their family was.. and even an outsider like me can feel the love that his parents shower to him and his sister. They are willing to give their children anything they want as long as it is useful to them. I know it's not right to compare, but I can't help it..
Then there's this another incident that left me feeling a little down. I was a little disappointed by his reply. When his sister asked him that question, all he did was to use the plate and tap gently on his sister's head. At that point of time, I wished he had given a reply, but no.. So.. who am I?
A friend.....?
It was not a great feeling to be treated this way. It's that feeling I hate. :(
An anonymous girl.
While I was having dinner with my brother and his girlfriend, we had a little quarrel over the stupid ladle thing. It led me to think that well, who is exactly the girl that is related to him by blood? Why do I feel that he treats his gf much better than he treats me? Or perhaps I should say, it's the truth. Like what I told my mum before, if we were to jump into the sea, he would have left me to die and save his gf first..
There's so much so much things to be sad about.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
God please stop giving me so much problems I can hardly take it anymore.
I spent my Christmas day with dear and his family at his house this year. There was a splendid feast and that's what I have been looking forward to ever since his mum invited me for the party. Initially was kinda reluctant to go because I felt shy.. Haha but everything turned out to be just fine! I enjoyed myself really much, especially the exchanging presents part. Stupid dear, I knew all along what he was up to in his mind, and I'm right!
Anyway like I said, the food was great. There were spaghetti, ham, turkey, stewed beef, chocolate corn flakes, fruit salad which tastes like heaven and most importantly, chocolate fountain fondue! Eat until I am so happy.
However somewhere during the opening presents part, something led me to think of my unhappy memories again. I saw and felt how close their family was.. and even an outsider like me can feel the love that his parents shower to him and his sister. They are willing to give their children anything they want as long as it is useful to them. I know it's not right to compare, but I can't help it..
Then there's this another incident that left me feeling a little down. I was a little disappointed by his reply. When his sister asked him that question, all he did was to use the plate and tap gently on his sister's head. At that point of time, I wished he had given a reply, but no.. So.. who am I?
A friend.....?
It was not a great feeling to be treated this way. It's that feeling I hate. :(
An anonymous girl.
While I was having dinner with my brother and his girlfriend, we had a little quarrel over the stupid ladle thing. It led me to think that well, who is exactly the girl that is related to him by blood? Why do I feel that he treats his gf much better than he treats me? Or perhaps I should say, it's the truth. Like what I told my mum before, if we were to jump into the sea, he would have left me to die and save his gf first..
There's so much so much things to be sad about.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
God please stop giving me so much problems I can hardly take it anymore.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Same people, different treatment.
Mood: Sad
Just had a quarrel with my mum.
Me: I got something to discuss with you, but you cannot be angry.
Her: What? Must be something up to no good.
Me: Want to ask if I can buy a new phone cause' my phone has some problems already..
Her: You want to buy dont buy so expensive one, save some money for yourself.
Me: But I will have to upgrade my plan to iphone plan.
Her: UPGRADE?! How much?
Me: $36/mth.
Her: (Shouting at me) Please la you. I already paying for a lot of things already and you still want to add on to my burden. You know plus gst everything one month can make up to $40 anot?! My salary already not alot, what you want me to do!!
Me: I can make up for the additional $10 by giving $10 to you every month. If not I can pay for my own phone bill..
Her: (Shout) Your money also I give you one what! You think you alot of money is it?
Me: I got teach tuition one, I still can afford to give $10 every month what.
Her: (Shouting and ranting all the way...) @#$$YU*&*&^*&#!!
Actually I understand the plight that my family is in now.. Thats why I wanted to discuss with her before I buy the phone.. but it seems like she doesnt want to speak to me nicely..
Since young, I have always been deprived of material things as compared to my brother. He always has the latest games, handphones etc.. all bought by my parents when he was still schooling. He doesn't even have to work part-time to buy what he want. What about me.. the handphones.. crayons i used in secondary school etc, I bought them using my own money which I saved. I even remembered asking my mum why my brother do not have to use his money but I have to, and got scolded for some reason in the end. Then now, as I am still schooling I even had to teach 2 tuitions to earn my own allowance, despite my already very tight schedule in school.
I still remember once, for my Sec 4 graduation day @ some hotel.. Each student is required to pay $50 for the ticket. So thinking of lessening my mum's burden, I went home and told my mum that the ticket costs $50 and that it is v. expensive. Without listening to what I was about to say next, she scolded me and told me that she has no money. I cried after that, because I had wanted to tell her that I can pay for the ticket myself.
I am not blaming my parents. They are really good to me. I guess the reason why is because they just wanted me to learn to depend on myself. But... there's too many buts. Every family has their own problems.
Sometimes I wonder, is it because of one person's selfishness in the family that the whole family has to suffer? I do not wish to elaborate more on this... He really hasnt contribute enough to help the family more.. despite him being the son.
Just had a quarrel with my mum.
Me: I got something to discuss with you, but you cannot be angry.
Her: What? Must be something up to no good.
Me: Want to ask if I can buy a new phone cause' my phone has some problems already..
Her: You want to buy dont buy so expensive one, save some money for yourself.
Me: But I will have to upgrade my plan to iphone plan.
Her: UPGRADE?! How much?
Me: $36/mth.
Her: (Shouting at me) Please la you. I already paying for a lot of things already and you still want to add on to my burden. You know plus gst everything one month can make up to $40 anot?! My salary already not alot, what you want me to do!!
Me: I can make up for the additional $10 by giving $10 to you every month. If not I can pay for my own phone bill..
Her: (Shout) Your money also I give you one what! You think you alot of money is it?
Me: I got teach tuition one, I still can afford to give $10 every month what.
Her: (Shouting and ranting all the way...) @#$$YU*&*&^*&#!!
Actually I understand the plight that my family is in now.. Thats why I wanted to discuss with her before I buy the phone.. but it seems like she doesnt want to speak to me nicely..
Since young, I have always been deprived of material things as compared to my brother. He always has the latest games, handphones etc.. all bought by my parents when he was still schooling. He doesn't even have to work part-time to buy what he want. What about me.. the handphones.. crayons i used in secondary school etc, I bought them using my own money which I saved. I even remembered asking my mum why my brother do not have to use his money but I have to, and got scolded for some reason in the end. Then now, as I am still schooling I even had to teach 2 tuitions to earn my own allowance, despite my already very tight schedule in school.
I still remember once, for my Sec 4 graduation day @ some hotel.. Each student is required to pay $50 for the ticket. So thinking of lessening my mum's burden, I went home and told my mum that the ticket costs $50 and that it is v. expensive. Without listening to what I was about to say next, she scolded me and told me that she has no money. I cried after that, because I had wanted to tell her that I can pay for the ticket myself.
I am not blaming my parents. They are really good to me. I guess the reason why is because they just wanted me to learn to depend on myself. But... there's too many buts. Every family has their own problems.
Sometimes I wonder, is it because of one person's selfishness in the family that the whole family has to suffer? I do not wish to elaborate more on this... He really hasnt contribute enough to help the family more.. despite him being the son.
Monday, December 21, 2009
A sad post..
忽然间, 我对我们的未来感到茫然. 是错噩感让我从所谓的梦境醒悟到, 原来我步入了错误的途径, 一开始就注定失败. 或许我应该放手, 但..曾经经历过的风风雨雨不是说放手就能放.. 我害怕这一切会失败. 怎么办, 我是应该勇敢向着白茫茫的未来继续走, 还是果断地做出一个了断...?
I am at a lost. Show me a future.. Show me we can. Tell me and assure me that all the worries that I am having are nothing, and that we can both work it out together, will you?
Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after.
:'(
:(
:(
I am at a lost. Show me a future.. Show me we can. Tell me and assure me that all the worries that I am having are nothing, and that we can both work it out together, will you?
Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after.
:'(
:(
:(
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
This Christmas..
2007: Christmas was a sad one because something big and bad happened.. :( Was invited to a party, but was only invited at almost 10p.m.. So Christmas was spent at home, watching television..
2008: Christmas was spent at Si Xuan's house.
2009: Si Xuan went overseas.. Smsed Fumin if she had any dates on Christmas but I was too late. Him.. I dont even have to ask because it's a definite nono. :( So, the only way I am spending this "joyous" occasion will be to stay at home.. Come to think of it I find myself so pathetic.
It's been years and years ever since I have spent Christmas out with anyone, and not even once with him. Because yes, family is important. Well.. I have nothing to say.
Bernard just called me for a short talk. The last time I saw him was the steamboat gathering with Marilyn and him. Asked him about SP's people and not forgetting the China girl. Seems like they were pretty impressed with her work efficiency. Damnn.
Did a nice wall paper for my clique ppl plus the 2 guys. :)
2008: Christmas was spent at Si Xuan's house.
2009: Si Xuan went overseas.. Smsed Fumin if she had any dates on Christmas but I was too late. Him.. I dont even have to ask because it's a definite nono. :( So, the only way I am spending this "joyous" occasion will be to stay at home.. Come to think of it I find myself so pathetic.
It's been years and years ever since I have spent Christmas out with anyone, and not even once with him. Because yes, family is important. Well.. I have nothing to say.
Bernard just called me for a short talk. The last time I saw him was the steamboat gathering with Marilyn and him. Asked him about SP's people and not forgetting the China girl. Seems like they were pretty impressed with her work efficiency. Damnn.
Did a nice wall paper for my clique ppl plus the 2 guys. :)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Well, I just had a minor conflict with him. Yea it's over small little things and he's still at it although I have apologised. He doesn't know what I always do after quarrelling. Does he care?
Anyway, I have just completed my Industrial Attachment 1 week ago and slacking at home is not a good way of passing time. But I can't seem to find any job in such a short period of time! Bored to death. Death. Death!
I miss SP's people.. the colleagues who worked and guided me for the past 5 months. Really really nice people! Sent my thanks to them.. :)
Suddenly I felt so old. I walked on the streets one day and realised I dont seem to be as youthful as the youngsters out there. Even an adult in the mid twenties looked and behave younger than me. Oh my, what have become of me. Is it because of my dressing, or it's just my imagination??
P.S: Fumin ahhhhh, you want to go genting with me maaaah. Free hotel lehz. Hahahaa. =P
Anyway, I have just completed my Industrial Attachment 1 week ago and slacking at home is not a good way of passing time. But I can't seem to find any job in such a short period of time! Bored to death. Death. Death!
I miss SP's people.. the colleagues who worked and guided me for the past 5 months. Really really nice people! Sent my thanks to them.. :)
Suddenly I felt so old. I walked on the streets one day and realised I dont seem to be as youthful as the youngsters out there. Even an adult in the mid twenties looked and behave younger than me. Oh my, what have become of me. Is it because of my dressing, or it's just my imagination??
P.S: Fumin ahhhhh, you want to go genting with me maaaah. Free hotel lehz. Hahahaa. =P
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