♥ Thy Lady

It's night time now. And for the whole day, i wasnt exactly in the best of mood. Terrible would be the best word to describe how i feel right now, at this very moment. And the worst thing is i do not know the reason either. I guess i just feel down.

I was pondering over something on the mrt and i realised perhaps i had made the wrong decision in the first place. Because everything went wrong. If i had not done it, i may not feel that way right now. Even to the extent of hatred. It was a decision gone wrong.

Sometimes, i wonder about the true characters and personalities of the friends around me. Are they real, or not. It's tiring, having to guess their thoughts. They may seem simple and sweet on the outside, but you never know what's inside them. Corrupted thoughts. I try my very best to think and believe that my friends are nice, that they are true. But the fact is, some are actually not. Yet, i still do choose to believe them, although i know they are lying. Because i supposed im one who treasure friendships too, and believe it or not, i give in too easily. I thought about it for quite a long time, and im still not sure if i should just give up or continue to play along.

Like what i said, my mood wasnt there. And so when i went to teach my P2 boy for tuition just now, i guess i was a little too harsh. And i felt so guilty, because he was so kind and sweet to give me a kit kat chocolate he got for his chinese test in school, yet i gave him that attitude.