Notice i havent been updating my blog for 1 week.. and there is a reason. I think this post will be full of vulgurities. Just bear with me.
Hasn't been in the best of mood this week. First of all, im seriously pissed off with myself and i have no one else to blame but myself. I totally missed my singapore power interview. To think i can actually missed out reading the column of the email that states that there is a change in the date of interview also. I thought there was only a change in timing! Dont ask me how i read my email but i just totally missed it. Damn fucked up. Now my chance of another interview is very slim and my first choice could be forfeited.
Next, one whole goddamn month of that bloody Engineering Innovation and Design Program - which means returning to school every day from 9am to 4.30pm, which never fails to leave me feeling very lethargic at the end of the day. Ask us to invent what stupid products or modify ideas. And during meetings, im always keeping very quiet and just listening because i have totally no idea what my group's idea was about or what they were talking about. They were talking about the using worm gears or pulley systems and i can only marvel at why they are able to think of such systems. At least there are such talents in my group. I guess i can only help them in writing business plan. No mechanical / electronic - related engineering stuffs for me, cause' i really cant. I tried, but i cant. I dont event know 70% of my group's ppl. And as my friends know, when im not familiar with someone, im usually dao-ing them. I dont want to either!
Lastly, if the person whom im going to mention next happen to find my blog and read this post, then im sorry but i really have to vent my anger here. So far, i have been in school with you for 2 years and i have always been tolerating you. I have always tried to talk nicer to you and be patient with you whenever you shoot your mouth off. But please be reminded that my patience has got a limit! People who knows me knows that im a very very straightforward person. And i dont know why but i have been tolerating you all the while. I once sent you a sms telling you to be careful of your attitude and language but you seem to have forgotten now. Fuck off ok. Sometimes i really feel like telling you straight in the face to mind your fucking language. I know most of the time you dont mean it, but please to others it means a lot. If you are going to continue with it then i only wish you good luck. Friends wont come easily for you. Colleagues will only backstab you in the future. Learn to say something nice will you. It's very frustrating and real irritating to talk to you and sometimes i just choose to keep quiet. You try me. I dont care if i dont have any friends in uni. I dont care if im alone for lectures or tutorials. I only have 1.5 more years to go and i dont give it a damn whether i have friends with me in school anot. Sometimes i would rather be alone so that at least i dont have to feel frustrated at your words. And mind you, im not doing very well in school because im in a course i dont like, not because im in any way less studious or more stupid than you. We belong to different worlds. I dont belong to engineering and no matter how hard i tried, i can only stay at this level because i have totally no interest at all! You, on the other hand belongs totally to engineering. If you are always trying to show off to people that you are very clever and good, then by all means show. Dont show it in front of me. And dont always talk to me in a very irritated manner. Its FUCKING FUCKING CAUSE-FOR-BEAT-UP.
I have always been very tolerating towards you. Just mind your language.
