Passion

It's 12.20am now and I still can't get to sleep.. To think I have to wake up at 5am later for work.

Just recently, boy brought up a topic on my passion. Have been thinking of it for quite some time about what he said and it suddenly ignited all the passion in me right again. I have not forgotten about my passion, it is just that I do not speak up because of so many concerns.

I do not see myself working like this for the rest of my life, even if I reached a management position I do not see myself being satisfied or happy. This is how much my passion means to me. I even have the urge to quit my job right at this moment to pursue my passion if I have all resources but there are just too many concerns I have to consider. If I quit my job, it is not just about me but my parents as well because I gave quite a substantial amount to them every month. They are never going to understand my passion anyway..

I see myself waking up everyday, researching information for what I really like to do, and do what I love to do. It is hard to explain how strong my passion is but I know it is there. No one except boy understands the passion in me, and I am so grateful for that.

I want to make it work, no matter how hard and I am going to make my first step out.

I hope my first step succeeds though it will take some time.