Christmas Day Post

Merry Christmas to all!! :)

I spent my Christmas day with dear and his family at his house this year. There was a splendid feast and that's what I have been looking forward to ever since his mum invited me for the party. Initially was kinda reluctant to go because I felt shy.. Haha but everything turned out to be just fine! I enjoyed myself really much, especially the exchanging presents part. Stupid dear, I knew all along what he was up to in his mind, and I'm right!

Anyway like I said, the food was great. There were spaghetti, ham, turkey, stewed beef, chocolate corn flakes, fruit salad which tastes like heaven and most importantly, chocolate fountain fondue! Eat until I am so happy.

However somewhere during the opening presents part, something led me to think of my unhappy memories again. I saw and felt how close their family was.. and even an outsider like me can feel the love that his parents shower to him and his sister. They are willing to give their children anything they want as long as it is useful to them. I know it's not right to compare, but I can't help it..

Then there's this another incident that left me feeling a little down. I was a little disappointed by his reply. When his sister asked him that question, all he did was to use the plate and tap gently on his sister's head. At that point of time, I wished he had given a reply, but no.. So.. who am I?

A friend.....?

It was not a great feeling to be treated this way. It's that feeling I hate. :(

An anonymous girl.

While I was having dinner with my brother and his girlfriend, we had a little quarrel over the stupid ladle thing. It led me to think that well, who is exactly the girl that is related to him by blood? Why do I feel that he treats his gf much better than he treats me? Or perhaps I should say, it's the truth. Like what I told my mum before, if we were to jump into the sea, he would have left me to die and save his gf first..

There's so much so much things to be sad about.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

God please stop giving me so much problems I can hardly take it anymore.