As I am blogging on this post, my heart is filled with pangs of 感慨.
好久没有写下过生活的一点一滴了，感觉，怪怪的，心情，低落到了极点。
目前一直处于相对矛盾当中，是也、非也，模模糊糊、混混沌沌的过着。在这是人非人、是物非物，一切充满着欺骗，充满着陷阱，充满着尔虞我诈，充满着惶恐与不安。理想，目标，与愿望，仅仅只为博得人生存的一席之地。得到的，失去的；快乐的，伤心的；美好的，痛苦的，在那经意与不经意间，徘徊。那些看似快乐、看似伤心、看似美好、看似痛苦的人们，只为品尝人生百味，只为博得红颜一笑，只为……
路，在我们自己脚下，有人说：“世间本没有路，走的人多了，就有了路”；有人说：“走自己的路，让别人说去吧”；还有人说：“路，是自己为自己搭设的”。我们自己可以按照自己的想法去走么？
路，究竟在哪里？
Can anyone just listen to me, ask me what I really want and bother to ask me how I am? Can anyone just let me decide what I want, and support my decision? Can anyone just compromise with me and let me do what I want for that just 1 day?
Can anyone give me a chance to pass through the biggest ordeal I have in my academic life now?
Please give me the courage.
I do not want to pursue any more of the high flyer life, I do not want to be competing against people and trying to reach the top. Money is important, but not the most important.. because it cannot buy happiness. I finally realised that now. Oneself's satisfaction is enough. I just want to pursue a simple, contented life.
