Sickly me. Much as i had wanted, i finally had a fever. But i totally regret it because it feels so terrible and bad. And there was nothing i could do or no one to be with me because i was alone at home for the whole day. All i could do was to find some panadols, popped it into my mouth, get some sleep and hoped everything will be fine.

Will be meeting my clique tomorrow for some shopping spree. On low budget now. I hope i will be fine by tomorrow.

Just read jiahe's blog. Suddenly felt sad cause' we will not be in the same tutorial class anymore. And im not sure how my new tutorial class will turn out to be. I hope all of them are nice chaps.

Found something interesting he mentioned in his blog. Shall copy it here..

"My classmate, Yuling sms-ed me today. She is planning a chatlet with.. eh heRm.. ..this Dec holiday, and she is asking me along. How nice! But the majority will be her JC classmates who’s she will be asking.. and if I go, I will only know her, Jerr (from CAC orientation camp as well) and Eh HerMm (know from some Eh Herm.. Hermm Hmm Hrm.. place). Chokes~
If I go, I will be one of the components in this."






Creative, isnt it?



This Christmas, will be a lonely one.

The sky is so glaring
Why does my heart ache?
My eyes well up unconsciously
I don't know when i started to...
imagine you walking towards me
I don't understand love and you

When will love arrive
Can't you get closer to me?
How do people fall in love?
I seem to be the muddleheaded one

Sometimes you use sweet words to stay close by my side
It's warm and comfortable

I got you a place in my heart
If you are willing to walk with me,
the times we spend will be,
as beautiful as dream
Please walk by me

Finally finished my exams on the 27th, but had only managed to squeeze out time to update my blog now. These two weeks basically im just busy with shopping, chalet and some other trivial stuffs.

I shall not talk about how my exams are going and whatsoever. Because i think i know how i will fare.

Just came back from the chalet organised by my og. Quite fun i must say. Esp the games we played. Played drinking games for two consecutive nights, and the blindfold game. Then for the second night, had to sleep on the hard floor. Woke up with very bad backache.

Watched 30 days of night with rik on the first night since we did not stayover. Very scary but nice show. Then because the show ends at 4 plus and it's neither morning nor night, so we roamed the streets for 2 hrs before settling down at Swensons for some fries. Felt so tired that night, and i guess the fact that im a little drunken has something to do with it too.

More and more people are asking me the same question over and over again. And i really do not know how to answer this question. It's making me feel more embarassed than before. The problem does not lie with me. And it's frustrating. Not that im despo or what, but this is normally how it should goes. No matter how much i tried to say, it's no use.

It's been such a hectic week. Loads of quizes coming up, and i feel like im suffocating.

Anyway, im officially 19 years old on the 27th of Oct. Still sweet nineteen. Im still a teenager. Haha. But i also agreed with yong sheng that im also old already. Imagine, next year i will be celebrating my 20th birthday. 20! I dont want to break 20! I want to stay young.

Received quite a few pressies this year, but im still waiting for the one that my clique has yet to give me. Haha, from what i understand, it's still waiting to be imported from taiwan into singapore. Shall wait then. I love receiving presents :)

Many people asked me how i celebrated my birthday. The answer i gave is basically the same, "Like that lo, nothing special." When i thought it would be special so much so im looking forward to it, it didnt turn out the way i had expected. I wouldnt say im disappointed, but i thought at least there's a surprise. A simple dinner and a stayover would sum it all. But, i still do enjoyed myself. Anyway, this is how my last birthday before i bade goodbye to being a teenager turned out to be.

Countdown to exams. Normally at this point of time i should be very familiar with my stuffs and furiously doing ten year series or past year exam papers over and over again to revise back and then familiarise myself with the concepts, but it's different now. With only 14 days to the start of the first paper, im still struggling to get my way out of all the tons of formulas and concepts. I have my own aims and i would want to ace as many subjects as possible. And im still trying my very best to work towards it!

Had a prepared speech yesterday during effective communication tutorial. Was feeling damn uptight and nervous i almost freaked out. If i could i would give out a loud shout, but i cant. Kept telling jiahe im very scared, and i will forget my content even though i have my cue cards with me to back up. Then he kept on reassuring me that it will be alright. I gave a speech on "When is the right time to have sex?", and when i said it, i could see some of my tutorial mates' expression. But, i still managed to complete my speech steadily and calmly, like what jiahe said. Even asked me how i managed to look so calm when im actually very nervous inside. Actually, i dont know how i did that either. Only thing i knew is that i had to look confident. To my surprise, i actually got an A+! Felt so happy for the achievement. But when i got all so excited and told someone about my achievement, he didnt really think too much of it, and even gave me the comment that im just very lucky. And it suddenly reminded me of another incident when i told him i got an A for my written speech, all he said was that he could do it as well too. It got me saddened for quite a while, as i was expecting some praises for my good work, but i got used to it the second time it happened. Sometimes, i would rather hear some nice words than crude remarks. At least, it gives me the motivation and spurs me on.

Wish me luck for my exams. I hope i can do well.. :)

~When you love someone~

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your handphone from that special someone, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love.

You kept telling yourself, "That special someone is just a friend.", but you realise that you cannot avoid the special attention given to that person. At that moment, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love.

When you find yourself constantly thinking about her every night, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for that call. At that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this, if someone appears in your mind, you are in love with that person.


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Once upon a time, there was a teacher and the student lay down under a big tree near the big grass area. Then suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student: Teacher, im confused how we find our soul mate. Can you please help me?

Teacher: (Silent for a while, then he answered) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.

Student: What do you mean?

Teacher: Look over there, there are a lot of grass there. Why dont you walk across but please, never walk back. Just walk on. On the way, try to find a beautiful grass and picked it up. Then give it to me. But, just one.

Student: Well, ok. (Walked to the grass field)

A few minutes later...

Student: Im back.

Teacher: I dont see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student: I found a few beatiful ones, but i thought i would find a better one, so i didnt pick it up. But i didnt realise that im already at the end of the field, and i hadnt pick any because i wasnt allowed to walk back.

What is the message?
*Grass : people around you
*Beautiful grass : people who attract you
*Grass field : time

**In looking for your special soul mate, do not always compare and hope that there will be better ones. By doing so, you will only waste your lifetime and chances because "Time never goes back, so accept who he/she is."**

Would you give up 10 friends for the girl you love?

I realised my blog is going to turn mouldy so i better blog some stuffs.

Had a shopping spree with my best shopping mate jiahui last saturday. As usual, she was late. But, i was still very happy that we met up, because it has been a long long long long time since we ever met up for shopping and updating each other on the latest news. The moment we met up, we just kept blabbering nonstop. That goes to say how much we missed each other. Shopped till drop at orchard - our favourite hangout place ever since jc times, and we have not even finished shopping.

Then met up with jerrand and rik for drinking session at The Balcony. At first, i felt kinda weird that rik is joining us, because he has nothing in common to talk to with the 3 of us. Light bulb. But, it still turned out well. And i think he was the most talkative one that night. Amazed by how he can click with people whom he has just known.

Anyway, i felt so guilty last weekend. Basically i just wasted my weekend away. Because i really do not feel like mugging. I think studying shouldnt be just mugging alone. Im not having fun in what i study. I dont enjoy it. And i have to constantly force myself to do it. I want to have fun! I want my life back! I dont want studying to dominate me. Im going to find a cca which i like and then have fun.

I dont like the feeling of losing. That's why im so determined in whatever i do. Call me stubborn or what, but i have my way of doing things. No one can dictate me, unless i want to. I know my way of doing things may not be the best way, but i felt more secured doing it my way.

There are actually 3 sides of me. The first side is the one that most people will perceive me as. The second side will only be seen my people who is close to me, or who has observed me closely. As for the last side, it is a hidden part of me, and so far no one has seen this side of me.

Sometimes, i felt that im not up to it. It's like that person is so high up, and im only there. It puts stress on me, and makes me feel that im not suitable. And i thought it should be like this, but somehow it didnt turn out to be what it should be. And i always try to do something, but the effort is not being reciprocated. And it always leads to the question of whether it is really worth it.

School. Uni life. I wonder how much longer i can hold on. Almost broke down these few days.. there are just too much work and lots of concepts to understand. And the thing is the amount of concepts that we dont understand just keeps on piling up because there isnt much time for us to go through them. On top of that, there's this lab formal report that we are supposed to do. Now no one is there to help me, and i have to face this bravely myself.

Fumin, i miss u. I wish you were there for me, at least i can complain to you and then call you in the middle of the night to ask you maths or science questions.

I was reading fumin's blog, and i realised i miss those times in aj too.. Shall also blog about what i miss.

- Coming to sch very early in the morning and seeing weejia walking in that forever slow pace.
- Sitting down at the parade square with weijing and weejia and crapping bout' lame stuffs, then observing people as they walked past.
- Secretly looking at iceman.
- Dozing off in lectures, especially maths.
- Fumin's mentos to wake us up, and we would pinch each other to keep awake.
- Salt's high-pitched voice, and her way of calling my name.
- Mr Ng's constant knocking on the board with his marker.
- Daljit's pink "shou tao" outfit which made me and fumin laughed for a good whole 2 hrs, and her "Alright okay.", plus her constant nagging at us to read the newspapers.
- Mr Sanuse's 2+6 own time own target
- William chua's pouch, and not forgetting his packet of coffee every morning. PLUS his sunglasses. Haha
- Chinese lectures.. where every thurs, me and fumin will go into the lecture hall early to play with the mike. Imitate the lecturers' actions and then singing out loud.
- Not listening to chinese lectures, because it was total crap.
- Always packing our things to go for break even before the lecturer had finished teaching.
- When the bell rang, and the 3 girls behind would be gone. (Tw, Kl and Krys)
- DJ's way of sleeping in lectures, then me and fumin will be laughing at him from behind. And fumin will kick his chair to wake him up.
- Weejia drawing and writing weird things on our lecture notes.
- Seok Hwee's cold jokes.
- Mugging outside LT.
- Kboxing with usual clique.

There are lots and lots of things i miss..

Getting very emotional.. there are some things i dont wish to say. I would rather keep it inside me, because i know no one would understand. Perhaps as time pass by, i would learn to like it. I hope i dont make the wrong decision once i have decided on it.

Anyway, i just heard a shocking news from my mum. It made me wonder what has become to girls now. Modern girls. They dont cherish themselves.. and they dont think of the consequences..

Shall end here. :)

Ppl are rushing me to update my blog.. But the thing is my time is really tight. I have tons and tons of tutorials, and many notes to read, because i think im still quite behind. Esp physics. Physics really sucks. I hate it. Kind of regret studying engineering, cause' it's all physics concepts. Cant stand it, but i have to endure. 4 years!! Besides that, "somebody" is taking up most of my time too, and i have to set aside some time for... Haha.

Yesterday had an aj clique outing to bugis. Everybody felt so happy and excited when we saw each other.. It really feels good to be able to get down together and talk about stuffs.. and updating each other on things in school. Seems like everyone has changed in one way or another. And as usual, the 5 of us were laughing and talking as loud as usual, like nobody's business. After the bitching around session, we went shopping at bugis village. And they made me wear dress. Dress! Then i will be like busy covering up some parts that are censored. In the end i was the "big winner", cause' i spent the most money. Got labelled "HOT" by them, simply because the skirt i bought was short, - which i dont think so. Then seok kept on telling me that i have changed, and im jiahan no.2, because i wore hot shorts. Hot is not the word for me la. Haha, i will puke.

Anyway, weijing already saw and knew who is "somebody" already. And i still cant believe she actually thinks "somebody" is not bad.

This is for jerrand. BOY, dont so tiko leh. Everytime look for hotties. Then want to sit near that cutie. HAHAHA!

Im broke. Im broke. Im broke. And yet "somebody" kept telling everyone im rich, which is an obvious lie. Lolz.

Missing in action for about 2 weeks. That's because school officially started last week and there's been a lot of things i have to do. I do not really understand what the lecturers are talking about, and i had to go home to read up on my notes and then get stuck for hours for my tutorial. Sometimes even to the extent of crying. But the lucky thing is, after some good rest, answers started popping up in my head. Esp for physics - which is like my worst subject.



Im known to be a computer idiot. And my brother always get fed up with me because i kept making his lap hang. Then he had to fix it. Lolz. And plus, im new to computing course. Imagine. Me! Computers! My head will explode one day. Or rather the keyboard may break into two..



Lots of things happened recently. And i realised every since i went into NTU, i am always seen hanging out with guys. So much so im like being labelled a scandalous girl. Haha.. It's not my fault. It's just the course im in, or maybe im too high most of the time.

Lots of notes to read. Lots of work to do. And not enough time. Imagine.. school has only started like barely 2 weeks and im already studying till 2am in the morning, and got to wake up at 6 to go for lectures the next morning.

Dont really feel like blogging. Im feeling stressed now. :(

It's night time now. And for the whole day, i wasnt exactly in the best of mood. Terrible would be the best word to describe how i feel right now, at this very moment. And the worst thing is i do not know the reason either. I guess i just feel down.

I was pondering over something on the mrt and i realised perhaps i had made the wrong decision in the first place. Because everything went wrong. If i had not done it, i may not feel that way right now. Even to the extent of hatred. It was a decision gone wrong.

Sometimes, i wonder about the true characters and personalities of the friends around me. Are they real, or not. It's tiring, having to guess their thoughts. They may seem simple and sweet on the outside, but you never know what's inside them. Corrupted thoughts. I try my very best to think and believe that my friends are nice, that they are true. But the fact is, some are actually not. Yet, i still do choose to believe them, although i know they are lying. Because i supposed im one who treasure friendships too, and believe it or not, i give in too easily. I thought about it for quite a long time, and im still not sure if i should just give up or continue to play along.

Like what i said, my mood wasnt there. And so when i went to teach my P2 boy for tuition just now, i guess i was a little too harsh. And i felt so guilty, because he was so kind and sweet to give me a kit kat chocolate he got for his chinese test in school, yet i gave him that attitude.

Just came back from CAC Camp. 5 whole days. And not even once did i had a had a good night sleep. The most number of hours of sleep i get was like only 5, and the least was a pathetic 3. That's because we were allowed to go to sleep only at 3 plus. Darn tired. And my eyes cant even open wide.

The first day we went to do our high elements thing at bukit batok, and had to sleep there for 2 nights as well. Our OG did one of the high element called Hour Glass, and it was scary. The girls kept giving lots of excuses to avoid having to do the activity, but in the end we had no choice but to go up. One by one. And lots of people were looking up at you. The legs kept on shaking, but nevertheless we still managed to clear this obstacle. Except that it left 2 scratches on my right arm and blue-blacks on my hand. Ahh i hope it wont leave me with a scar.

Second day we went to sentosa for our beach games. It was quite fun, and the weather was good. Breezy. Did not even have to put on sun block. And i must say our OG is a really "must-win" group. Once we play, we can be very crazy and pia. Very determined to win. So much so we can even resort to cheating. At night time, we had our fright night with a guy partner in one of the "forest" at sentosa. Initially it was really scary, cause' it was dark. And there were people jumping out to scare you. Screamed like mad. And my partner told me im a screamer, cause' the "ghost" scaring me got shocked by my screaming. After that played some games with the jokers, our favourite game- big fish, small fish. My zhi ming shang also. Lost 5 times, had to do forfeit. Darn paiseh. Stood in front of the other OGs, do that "han xing dian bing" thing. And i seriously think they think we are mad. Slept only at 5 am. Zai.

Third day we did amazing race outside campus. That one was really shag. Ran like mad. Practically mad. Night time we had the SP initiation night. Everybody got blingfolded and the girls were being brought to our secret partner. It was really weird, being blindfolded for the whole night. The ogls forced us to hold hands throughout the whole thing, even when we were sitting down talking. My sp was quite a joker also. And i think it's the first time i get to speak in english with someone for so long. Got quite surprised when he told me he was of mixed blood. And i was telling myself, "die, im gg to speak in english." But it turned out quite ok la. At least we do not really have those awkward silence. Cause' most of the time we were basically suan-ning and crapping. Played games with sp. And got my whole body so dirty i had to throw everything away, including my favourite aj pe tee. Shivering like mad also, with toothpaste all over our body. Washed my hair 3 times that night.

Thursday night was the night that everybody dread most, especially the girls, because we thought it was stupid. Haha. It's like getting married la. Girls in the same og were to settle down in one of the hostel rooms. Then the guys will have to go from door to door finding their sp. And they had to do sop-standard operation practice. That is to take off their clothes and sing or dance or whatever. Funny la. Then had to kneel down and propose to the girl. Had a really good laugh. Had dinner with sp at pariss. So expensive yet not nice. Then went around for some walk tog and people thought i got kidnapped.

Had clubbing also, at DXO. First time. First dance. Everyone is practically high. Danced like nobody's business.

Then friday is the last day for camp. Not much. Just the skid and cheer fight thing. We won the best OG. And till now i still could not believe it, because seriously speaking, we do not feel enthu at all. Haha. But i think, at least we do enjoyed ourselves and the team spirit is there. Won the cheer fight also. Fabia freshies really are the best!!!!! Loads of jokers around too. And i think almost everyone was aware of the big group of ajcians in fabia.

By the way, i agreed with what Sel said. That is this whole camp thing is all about matchmaking. Heard it's because it was sponsored by sdu, and it was believed that smart+smart = smart babies. Funniest theory ever heard.

Anyway, in a few days time, school will be starting. And i do not really look forward to it. Felt quite sian. Having to go over the making friends-studying process all over again. Duh.

Had a very packed schedule yesterday. Or rather busy. Many stuffs to handle in just one day. First up in the morning, went for the ntu medical check-up, accompanied by jiahui. And when i thought i will be the only girl there, i was wrong. There was an equal number between the 2 sexes. Did not see any eye-candies, just one. One single one. Haha. Not bad, and jiahui agreed with me. Realised his name was nelson. The others were, like normal. Haha. Pin pin fan fan. The girls were, normal too.

Then, went to the subordinate court to settle some stuffs. Wah, looked quite grand. And lawyers looked cool. Too bad, i have no such chance to be one in my life anymore. Haha.

After which, went shopping around at orchard. A very rushed one. Bought a top which i liked very much. THEN, met up with weej and fm for dinner. Nth much la, just talked and laughed about some jc stuffs last time. Especially the one about daljit, newspaper readings all that. Come to think of it, really miss those times. Kept on forcing weej to talk about previous crush(if he had). And he kept denying it. Face also darn red. Hai xiu lehh.

Next week will be my last week in olympus. Really last week. Cannot extend anymore, because i will be gg to orientation camp and the going on to pursue my studies. A colleague asked me if i will feel sad. I guess, yes. But, who knows i may return back to work 4 yrs later? Haha.

Thinking of studying freaks me out. And it's the subject i hate most. Physics. ahhh. What force. Work done. And many many formulas. Dead.

I can foresee it's going to be a really hectic week for me, because my schedule is sooo packed, at least for this week. Maybe next week i will be more free, but it all have to depend on my bunch of friends. Haha. Im basically booked full this week, from mon-sun. Imagine.

Today, after work, i met up with sx for gym session at woodlands stadium. I know it might sound ridiculous for me to go there for a gym session. Ya indeed, after a good sweating out, i felt too tired to even walk all the way from the stadium back to woodlands mrt. But, being a sportswoman once, still managed to drag my legs there. Just that it's a little dark over there, and i kept looking back to see if there are anyone following me. Thinking back, i still miss netball times. Haha. So much so i intend to join netball and pool in uni.

Tml, im gonna go swimming with jh. I swear i must learn that frogstyle well. It looked easy, but it's actually not. I think freestyle is easier, just that it requires more strength. That means, im going to be home late again.

Wednesday, im teaching a p2 student tuition at admiralty after work. And i hope i dont get lost, because i have absolutely no sense of direction. Teach till 9. Gonna lie dead on the bed after i reached home.

Thurs, yoga class.

Fri, Review+gym/___

Sat, tutoring

Sun, tutoring

See, how packed my schedule is. One word - TIRED.

Anyway, i guess im a little too obsessed with skincare products. Drank a bottle of rock sugar bird's nest every once in 3 days, at night time. That is 3 bottles a week. Initially had wanted to drink every night, but considering the money factor, reduced it to just once in 3 days. Guess at a age of 19, we should start to take care of our skin already.

Yupps. That should be all. Guess i wont have the time to update again within this week, so stop nagging at me! Esp shuai ge- weejia. Hahaa. :)

-They stopped moving forward. And simply just leave it there, still, withstanding the test of time. No one wants to take a step forward, to let it grow, and bear fruit. If only someone takes the initiative, im sure a miracle would happen.-

I went TTSH to take my spinal x-ray last week cause' of my back pain which is killing me sometimes. And the doctor told me the formation of one of the bones at my spinal tail is different from normal people. That is i have one big bone instead of 2 small ones, which means im actually more inflexible at the lower back, hence the pain. So, i have to bear with it, for i have no choice.

Went exercising 3 times this week, once swimming, once running and once yoga. Time really flies, as i have learnt yoga for 7 mths. And the current yoga class im going to now is going to end soon, and im thinking of signing up for the intermediate class, after being in 2 elemetary classes before. Haha.

Today, received 2 msgs. One from sx, the other jiahui. Both asking me to go swimming. Lolz. Im going to be darn busy next week. 7 days a week, and im teaching tuition 3 times a week, 3 times exercising, 1 day shopping/rest. Duh. Tired.

Anyway i was in a company yesterday doing some review and i was sitting opposite these 2 aunties. And i can see that they keep looking and smiling at me. Then one of the auntie actually went over to where i was sitting and started telling me that i have very nice radiance, then going on to say they want to have such nice radiance like mine. After which i saw the same auntie in the lift, and she told me im pretty. I think some stamp must have been stuck onto her eyes. Hahaa. I think how one presents herself does matters, including the clothes you wear.

Yupps. Gg to chiong exercising like hell next week. Sweat all out. Lolz.

As usual, i met up with jh after work yesterday. But this time round, we did not go the usual orchard and bugis, instead met up at cityhall. Had our dinner, shop a little, then casually walked to esplanade and have our drink at Harry's. I ordered this drink, sex on the beach as i thought its name looked interesting to me. And i felt too embarrassed to say out its name so i just merely pointed it out to the waiter. Jh ordered sunset paradise.

The sex on the beach drink was nice, but there seems to be some wine in it. Quite strong, because after i finished drinking, i felt a little hot. And that's when i realised why this drink was given that very "nice" name. Hahaa. But after a while it was ok.

We finished drinking at around 9 and realised it was too early to head home. So we just casually walked around and that's when a guy approached us to buy the tickets for some jetty tour around esplanade, raffles place and clark quay. It costs us 12 bucks for each ticket, a 30 mins ride. And to think we actually agreed. I think some people might think we are crazy, but it was really worth it. The "ship" brings us around raffles place and then to clark quay. And i realised that the world is so big, and i felt so small. Wei bu zu dao de gan jue. So insignificant. Then i looked at the tall buildings, and i told myself how well it would be if i worked in one of those. Clary quay is a really lively and nice place at night. You would never have realised singapore is a nice place without clark quay. It's suitable for all generations, be it lovers, friends or families.

Saw many youngsters and lovers sitting by the bay.. and then somehow i felt happy for those lovers. They seemed so sweet. And i couldnt help but tell jh that i wished i had one. Haha. Fm, heard it? Lolz.

Aye, nothing to blog le. V. bored these few days. Work work work. Felt like mugging now. Like those days in aj. :)

Yah Yah Yah, stop spamming my blog and then nagging at me to blog whenever you people see me la. Im trying my BEST to update my blog now. Qi guai Leh.

Ok, im going to divide this post into many parts. First, im officially an undergraduate of NTU, and it makes me feel so excited. Perhaps because of all those endless fun in uni that i heard of. But the saddest thing is i have to forgo living in the hall because i couldnt find myself a partner. Duhhh. Wasted really. By the way, im surprised that MOE actually offered me a place for teaching, that is the bachelor of education (science,secondary) degree. Because, according to liane, some of her friends who can talk well and at the same time possess good grades got rejected. Maybe i crap too much, and it somehow happened that the interviewers like it or found it entertaining. But, i still pushed away this offer in the end. Haha.

Call me hum or what, but im a little afraid of camps. Hahaha. The people are just too enthusiastic.

Recently, there's been a lot of commotion and discussion about this year's university admission. True i agree that it's been a very very competitive year, considering the huge number of dragon babies applying. Anyway, i happened to read a chinese newspaper one day and i got shocked at the exact statistics. Apparantly, there are more than 80 000 applicants vying for merely just 10 000 places in all 3 universities. And there are those with grades BCD who couldnt get in, not even an interview. Consider yourself lucky really, if you managed to get into uni, and what's more the course that you want. Agreed with what sixuan told me, that to be able to get into uni is already the elite of the country.

Secondly, 3 weeks ago i went to KL and Genting. And the best part is, i managed to get into the casino w/o being recognised or realised that im actually under 21. Lolz. Then i started playing the machine game, won myself 2000 pts. Decided to stop playing and claim the money, so i called the casino helper (not sure how to address him) to help me. That's when he discovered im underage and needs to leave the casino immediatedly. Hahaa, so my father helped me to claim the money. But the next day, we went to another bigger casino, and i managed to walk in and out w/o being discovered. Really da kai yan jie over there, but not as magnificent as i thought it would be. Lots of smokers around, and i hate it.

Third. As usual, went out with jh last fri night. And i started to realise we always never fail to have a date every fri night, so much so im sick of seeing jh liao la. Hahahaa. Did not go shopping, instead our very light dinner, we went for some drinking. Sat down at the open area in breko, ordered heinekein and stella artois under the beer category, and started drinking. You know, those glass bottle type. I thought both tasted the same, but jh actually like mine more. Stella artois has got more alcohol. Didnt get drowsy, didnt get red, feel so normal. Hahaa.

Fourth, had kbox session with only weejia and fumin. Sounded a little weird, maybe it's been too long since we ever had kbox. But it was fun, la. Bought a vest, which i love it so much. So much so i had to forgo buying the shoes i liked so much! Fumin, the shoes! I want to buy!!!! AHhh.

Missed going escape. Fumin, remember to organise hor!!

K laaaa. That shall be all for today ba. :))

I feel that my blog is all so blank. Really can't stand the unsightly sight of it. And with dj and weejia in camp most of the time, there is no one to tag my blog. Not to mention fumin, i think she has got nothing to tag also. Duh.

My contract at Olympus Singapore as a temporary administrative assistant will be ending soon, that is on the 4th of june. Which means, i have to start finding a job now. But recently, i have been flipping through the papers, and all i can find is telemarkeeters, admin staffs, data entry all kinds of things. Seriously speaking, i have considered being a telemarketeer before, cause' i thought it was quite fun, but the thought of the meagre pay just makes me give up being one.

I think i will be very emotional on the last day in olympus. Unknowingly, I have spent half a year there. To speak the truth, i did not like my job there initially. But it's only during recently that i start to like it. I must really consider myself lucky, with so many people taking care of me. It's just so fun working with this bunch of people. Sometimes, merely by just listening to their conversation makes me laugh. I think, it's true that we only learn to cherish things when we are about to lose them.

Had corporate dinner at Vienna yesterday. The food there is ok, and i think i drank more than what i ate. Not drinks, but soup. My colleagues even called me "Soup King". Haha. Then the thing that i felt the most regretful was i missed shaking hands with the second boss. Ah. Then, Irina sent us home. 3 managers, 1 accounts executive, and one temp staff(that's me) in the car. They talked about conpany's things, like which customer's company is the richest, who came for the agents' meeting.. Then when my 2 managers got down of the car, one person(i shall not name) said sth which made me very very very very x 10 pissed. And it affected me so much i kept thinking about it for the whole night. I felt truly insulted. I know that person did not mean it, but i have never been so insulted before. And the thing is, it isnt even true in the first place.

Somtimes i think, that im born with a hard life. That it's fate that i have to work extra hard to achieve what i want. That i constantly have to face failures, even after slogging my guts out. That the people around me are more fortunate than me. That even by not working hard can make them achieve what they want. I have many concrete examples to list. And if i list it down here, many people will be on the list. I hate it this way. It's Not Fair.

By the way, i hate it when people do not reply to my smses. I have a list of people who constantly do not reply to my smses every now and then. It's Rude. And it always gives me that who-do-you-think-you-are feeling.

Sounds like im grumbling now. Guess this is the result of all the pent-up feelings in me. Now i felt so relaxed, after blogging all my feelings out. :)

Oh yes, my previous blog is gone. Blogspot drives me crazy really. Cant stand computers. Anyway, though beautifulworldofmine.blogspot.com still exists, but i cant login to update my posts, so now im changing it to crazyladylovescrapping.blogspot.com .

Wasnt in the exact mood to shop on friday night, but nevertheless, still managed to meet up with jh. We just did some lazing around in tangs and takashimaya. Lots of discounts on every last friday of the month, which was really great. Then had our dinner next at crystal jade restaurant.
After that we actually went into the gucci, dkny and burberry shop. I could still remember the smug looking expression on the salesperson's face when we walked into the gucci shop. And the thing is no one came to serve us at all (although we werent keen on buying anything in the first place). That shouldnt be how their service should be.

I was telling jh this, "Hey, if one day one of us were to be very successful, promise that we do not forget each other, and we must help each other." And we agreed on this pact.

I think as we get older, we yearn for more stuffs. Jh asked me to recommend some guys to her, but the thing is, i do not have any to recommend to her either! Haha. Dj asked me to go road find. Lolz. I think love is something very complex. Looking at the people around be, all so infatuated by love. Dj, fm blah blah. I rather there's no such thing as love. Everybody be nuns and monks ba. Haha.

Yupps. That should be all. Back hurts so much i couldnt sit or stand straight. -_-