2012 has not been a good start for me. I haven't been blogging because there has been just too many things happening for the past few months which I have not shared.
My cousin passed away unexpectedly during new year's eve. He was only 32 years old. Just when most of the people were happily celebrating the coming of 2012, I was in Malaysia for the wake mourning. I looked at him laying down in the coffin and then vivid images of him passed through my mind. I would never had thought that he would passed away just like that, that the last I saw him was during Chinese New Year last year. It came through to me that life is really fragile, and you never know when people close to you will be leaving you.
Then during Chinese New Year Day 1 when I was in JB at my grandma's place, I had an encounter with the supernatural that left me thinking that I could have been really been down on my luck. My parents sort of sensed it but they kept quiet so that I would not be afraid. Ever since that, I started to be very conscious of small little noise/sounds in the night. Paranoid or what, I don't know.
That's not the last. Again during Chinese New Year Day 4, I went back home to realize that my room had been broken into - with my newly bought Nikon camera lost. Apparently, someone had tried to use a L-shaped metal rod to hook up my bag which is by the window side. My camera had a handstrap so it could have been hooked up and stolen away. My bags were being rummaged through and what was left behind was that L-shaped rod which I stupidly threw away because I had thought nothing was lost. Made a police report 2 days later and up till now there's still no news.
Someone in my family wasnt in good health all of a sudden and I am afraid that things could be worse than just what was initially guessed. I can never imagine how I would react if it really happened.
Till then only did I realized how much I loved the people around me. I had thought that all I want was to earn more and more money and climb higher in my work. But things changed, and I see myself going to the extent of being willing to put off whatever I have now and future advancements to be there for whoever I loved.
Life's short.
Other than earning all the money you can have, what is the real happiness that you are looking for?
After all the things that had happened for the past few months, instead of feeling that I am being unlucky or unfortunate, I felt the opposite. I learnt that despite all these, I am still fortunate. I have a family who dotes on me and a boyfriend who listens to me and advise me on stuffs.
Simple things brings big happiness that last forever.
What more can I ask for?
