Missing in action for about 2 weeks. That's because school officially started last week and there's been a lot of things i have to do. I do not really understand what the lecturers are talking about, and i had to go home to read up on my notes and then get stuck for hours for my tutorial. Sometimes even to the extent of crying. But the lucky thing is, after some good rest, answers started popping up in my head. Esp for physics - which is like my worst subject.
Im known to be a computer idiot. And my brother always get fed up with me because i kept making his lap hang. Then he had to fix it. Lolz. And plus, im new to computing course. Imagine. Me! Computers! My head will explode one day. Or rather the keyboard may break into two..
Lots of things happened recently. And i realised every since i went into NTU, i am always seen hanging out with guys. So much so im like being labelled a scandalous girl. Haha.. It's not my fault. It's just the course im in, or maybe im too high most of the time.
Lots of notes to read. Lots of work to do. And not enough time. Imagine.. school has only started like barely 2 weeks and im already studying till 2am in the morning, and got to wake up at 6 to go for lectures the next morning.
Dont really feel like blogging. Im feeling stressed now. :(
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
It's night time now. And for the whole day, i wasnt exactly in the best of mood. Terrible would be the best word to describe how i feel right now, at this very moment. And the worst thing is i do not know the reason either. I guess i just feel down.
I was pondering over something on the mrt and i realised perhaps i had made the wrong decision in the first place. Because everything went wrong. If i had not done it, i may not feel that way right now. Even to the extent of hatred. It was a decision gone wrong.
Sometimes, i wonder about the true characters and personalities of the friends around me. Are they real, or not. It's tiring, having to guess their thoughts. They may seem simple and sweet on the outside, but you never know what's inside them. Corrupted thoughts. I try my very best to think and believe that my friends are nice, that they are true. But the fact is, some are actually not. Yet, i still do choose to believe them, although i know they are lying. Because i supposed im one who treasure friendships too, and believe it or not, i give in too easily. I thought about it for quite a long time, and im still not sure if i should just give up or continue to play along.
Like what i said, my mood wasnt there. And so when i went to teach my P2 boy for tuition just now, i guess i was a little too harsh. And i felt so guilty, because he was so kind and sweet to give me a kit kat chocolate he got for his chinese test in school, yet i gave him that attitude.
I was pondering over something on the mrt and i realised perhaps i had made the wrong decision in the first place. Because everything went wrong. If i had not done it, i may not feel that way right now. Even to the extent of hatred. It was a decision gone wrong.
Sometimes, i wonder about the true characters and personalities of the friends around me. Are they real, or not. It's tiring, having to guess their thoughts. They may seem simple and sweet on the outside, but you never know what's inside them. Corrupted thoughts. I try my very best to think and believe that my friends are nice, that they are true. But the fact is, some are actually not. Yet, i still do choose to believe them, although i know they are lying. Because i supposed im one who treasure friendships too, and believe it or not, i give in too easily. I thought about it for quite a long time, and im still not sure if i should just give up or continue to play along.
Like what i said, my mood wasnt there. And so when i went to teach my P2 boy for tuition just now, i guess i was a little too harsh. And i felt so guilty, because he was so kind and sweet to give me a kit kat chocolate he got for his chinese test in school, yet i gave him that attitude.
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