Something bad happened the night before. My dad was hospitalised and had to undergo an operation and I was in the hospital with him all the while. Never slept. It really broke my heart to see him in that kind of situation.

Although it has nothing to do with me, but I felt very very guilty towards it. My heart really ached when I saw him in that situation, especially when I saw the photo. There is nothing I can do to help him and all I can do is stay by his side. It doesnt feel good when he had to wait 14 hours for the operation to begin after the accident happened. Throughout the whole night, I really felt very very guilty although it was a accident. And now here I am wanting to rant out how I feel.

Leave my family members alone.

It's been a long while since I last updated my blog.

Latest news: I just booked a trip with Rik to Bintan and we will be away 3d 2n from 4th July to 6th July! Booked a spa package consisting of a 75 minutes massage and shopping time too. Will be staying at Bintan Lagoon Resort (supposedly a 4* hotel but we will know whether this is the real case when we reached there). Total damage = $233 which is considered cheap for hotel + massage + shuttle bus to shopping area and back to our hotel. As two stingy cheapo people, I decided that I shall bring 3 cup noodles while Rik decided that he will be bringing bread as we discovered that one meal over at Bintan can cost up to SGD20-30 bucks. Gosh. I would rather eat cup noodles and use the money for the jet-ski!! Really really want to try it but Rik doesnt want to spend that much money on this.. cause' it's quite expensive. :(

I screwed up my Japanese exam paper. Dont wish to elaborate but I totally screwed it up. It's quite easy actually. Damn it.

Back to nothing-to-do-feel-so-bloated-and-useless at home days. Maybe I should go swimming in the morning everyday like what I used to do for the previous semester. No income = Bad mood.

Anyway, have you noticed that we have started to quarrel more often these days? Always over trivial matters like who scold who, your tone harsh or my tone harsh, you or me being easily irritated over small matters.. I hate it everytime this happens. Each time this happens, I feel the strain in our relationship.

There was a period of time where I felt the sweetness of our relationship. But like a flower, it withers off very fast. I wish we can quarrel less often over small minor matters. I wonder if it is because I am more sensitive now or it's because your temper has changed..

Even though this is not possible, but I still wish to say here - I wish I were being pampered.

On Sunday, I was invited by Rik/his mom to the Grand Gallery at the Ritz Carlton for a hi tea invitation in the ocassion of the Commonwealth Games Queen's Baton Relay here in Singapore.

There was a bunch of Indian ladies wearing nice sarees at the Grand Gallery and they seem to be chitchatting. I think they are the rich tai tais. As I walked past them, I overheard one of the ladies conversation. "My son is 21 this year and he is studying law......"

Then it was time to welcome His Excellency (That's how the people there address him and he is from India). I was still munching on the delicious crunchy potato chips when he arrived. So I quickly stuffed it in and looked at him with a full mouth when he walked past. Damn paiseh.

Finally another person arrived with the Queen's Baton in his hands as he walked through the Grand Gallery. Everyone started clapping and so I did the same. We had thought the top of the Baton was supposed to have fire but we were wrong. In fact, the Baton was a high tech one. It has in built camera, and a GPS system that can capture smses. After listening to the speech, I then realised that this Queen's Baton Relay started out last year in October starting from London, and it will travel through 70 countries with the last stop being in India. And it is expected to end by Oct 2010 this year. Cool!

Hi-tea started. But the food was a little disappointing though. Anyway, the potato chips rocks!

After that, had dinner with Rik's relatives at Pho Hoa. Due to some reasons which I am lazy to explain here, the whole meal was free of charge. Hanged around and then they went to Starbucks to have some chit chatting session. I suddenly feel that kids are cute!

Anyway, the main point is apparently, someone felt that I am materialistic.. Well.. I dont feel like explaining this anymore.

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